Finally back to writing

Sorry for the hiatus!! Had some family issues to take care of an kinda took a break from writing. With the new year here I'm excited to be rededicted to making this an active sub space for myself and others to enjoy. 

Welcome back :)

Sweet release.

One of the first things I learned on this journey is to let go. In the chaos of the day I remain in control during office hours making sure everything is in its place and everyone stays on task, meetings, reports, constant rule. I find myself barely able to contain the excitement as I enter the final hour of my workday. I realize returning home I can finally be myself. Closely following the routine daddy has established I carefully shed the demands of my work day , shower, reflect,  prepare and trade my business attire for his collar and nothing else.  Usually rushing into my place I kneel by the door excited waiting to hear his keys in the door. I crave the release of being able to be under his control and I fall into place at his feet so gracefully.

Terms of engagement

This is pretty much a general creed that I follow.  We also have a set of rules and protocols that go hand in hand but generally speaking these are the standards I am held to by my Master and myself:

1.  I will communicate with complete honesty my needs, desires, limits, and experience. I realize that failing to do so will not only prevent my Master and I from  having the best experience possible, but can also lead to physical and emotional harm.

2. I will not try to manipulate my Master. I will not push to make a scene go the way I feel it should. In other words, I will not top from the bottom.

3. I will keep an open mind about trying things that I am not comfortable with and expanding my limits. I will continue to grow as a submissive and as a human being.

4. I will accept the responsibility of discovering what pleases my Master, and will do my best to fulfill his wishes and desires.

5. I will not allow myself to be harmed or abused. I know that submissive does not equal doormat.

6. I will be courteous and helpful to my fellow submissives. I will share my knowledge and experience with others in the hope that they will learn and benefit from where I have been. I will take the time to help those new to the scene start out on the correct path.

7. I will be responsive to my Master. I will not try to hide what my mind and body are feeling so that I may assist him in his responsibilities as my authority. I know that Dominants are not telepaths, and will not expect my Top to know thoughts or feelings which I do not share.

8. I will accept in the responsibility of a scene or relationship gone bad. I will not place total blame on my Top when it is not warranted simply because he is the Dominant. I realize that things may not work out as they should at times, and will do my best to put it behind me and move on.

9. I will give my gift of submission only to those that can responsibly accept and desire to receive. I will not place anyone in the position of Topping me non-consensually, nor will I give my respect to someone that has not earned it.

10. I know that D/s is not a contest, and will never think myself a "better" submissive because I choose to submit on a different level than another. I will not be boastful of the experiences I have had as a bottom.

11.I will be obedient to my Top even if I disagree with what he is requesting. I realize he has my best interests at heart and often knows better than I what I need in a particular situation.

12. I know that my actions reflect upon my Top, and will do my best to help others see him in a positive way. I will not intentionally embarrass or displease my Dominant.

13. Above all, I will wear my title of submissive with honor. I will never cause others to think that being submissive means to be weak or sub-human. I will take pride in who and what I am and will never show myself in a negative way.

A lil time away

Decisions decisions....life is filled with them and most are no where near easy. Sometimes no matter how much you  decide that you want something the act of doing remains arduous. I'm no pseudo 50 shades of gray type of girl. I jump into everything completely and I try not to let things get in the way. Making the complete and total pentacle of your satisfaction  24/7 the satisfaction of another is however, to say the least a complex undertaking. On occasion in my Lil mind I dwell on it and dare I say even find myself burdened by my own need to live under such strict and passionate circumstances. Luckily, however, I have a loving and compassionate Master. He is always there to not only offer a supportive and listening ear but, to provide me with the discipline I require in my rebellious states.  Thus I am free to meander through these lapses in focus "unscathed" and in the end loved all the more.

It all started interestingly enough with a simple request

Hello

You can call me Dee as most of my friends do. My master calls me "slut" when i've been good and deserving mostly when we are at play...but before we get into all that I suppose I will let you know how this all even began.

I am not the girl I appear to be an really never have been , but I guess we all are different people once we "let our hair down" so to speak.  Most people imagine the perfect man to be prince charming, he comes along and sweeps them off their feet and they ride off into the sunset.  I wanted prince charming but I needed him to be more than just a cute face an irresistable personality. I need a man who made me want to give myself to him body,mind and soul. One that I could trust enough with all of me  and who would truly understand the gift that I had presented him with.  Now as much as I wish I could say it was some fairy tale and we rode off in the sunset me over his shoulder it wasn't. This was more of a dance around what we really wanted until one day I came out with it and told him respectively that all this holding back was not going to work and I wanted...I needed to be kept in my place.

From the outside we a typical couple. One who often receives compliment of how much we respect each others feelings and how happy I am to make him happy. Behind closed doors I have freely given him my will, he considers my feelings and opinions but decisions are solely  his to make and I do not complain. He is the provider and I keep the nest in order and a smile on his face by making sure to be available to my masters will.

For now I am in my training collar and juggling new responsiblities with learning indepth things about myself and Him as well. I will do my best to give a daily account of how this all goes and what im working on and make it as interesting as possible lol.